Against All Odds

hey everyone, haven't posted in a few days, just needed those off. this weekend was pretty fun...angie came down on friday and left sunday morning. during that time, we pretty much just hung out and watched a few movies. really, anymore it's becoming more and more apparent who my real friends are. the ones that call you on a pretty average basis and wonder what's going on, or maybe wanting to hang out. the others i think anymore are just not wanting me to be around, and it became further apparent the other night with a certain phone call which i won't go into. these kinda things really hurt my feelings, it's almost like i don't exist anymore you know? angie's about the only one that can save me from my boredom on average. these kind of things are really disconnecting me from home. every day i get more of the urge to just move on, get out of this place and somehow, survive elsewhere. my friends wouldn't miss me, my family becomes increasingly irritated by certain habits of mine, and i just think in general it's not worth it anymore. the friends that i really feel care about me aren't here, aren't around, and that really sucks. every day i just wonder what it would be like if i was unlucky and didn't have angie. it just kills me to think about it, cuz sometimes she's the only one that ever understands me, the only one that can figure out what my problems are and how to fix them.

ok, and now for a different subject: why can't you get a job where all you have to do is just know a shitload of stuff. i work at best buy, and as most of you know i'm a gadget whore. i know about probably 90% of the merchandise that best buy sells and what's better and what's worse. it really seems to impress the customers when i can stay with them the whole sale and be knowledgeable about everything in the store. it's not just that store though, i mean, it draws all the way back to my music as well, and it makes me wonder why i can't do this kinda thing permanently. would i be a good reporter for a magazine where i comment on what gadget i think is cool each month? or maybe i can just do a news commentary on the latest and greatest musical artist. well kids, seems to be that the reality is that this isn't possible, and that i'll never really fit well in a job (well, minus the whole music biz). on a side note, i think it'd be really sweet to work for apple...(course most of you probably guessed this).

i'm hoping that i can throw some of my original music up on this blog for you guys to download, that is, if anyone at all reads this blog anyways.

which brings me to my next point. you know, i really don't care if anyone reads this blog, it really doesn't matter to me if i have a huge underground audience out there that loves to read about the trials and tribulations of matt galligan's life. well, the truth is, i do this for me, i do it so that i can vent, so that i can get my thoughts and ideas out there. keeping a private journal is just stupid in my opinion, why shouldn't the rest of the world know my thoughts?

rediscovered artist/album of the day: Jem * Finally Woken